'Revival' in C sharp

To be this close to someone… Seraphim didnâ€t think it would happen again so soon. She had only just gotten out of her relationship with Megumi, and the results of it were an absolute disaster. And yet… here she was, finding these feelings beginning to come to her that she didnâ€t know how to deal with. In Seraphimâ€s entire life, there were only a few people she ever cared so much about. There was Alison and Tracy, who she loved like a sisters, one recent, and one from her time long ago. There was one girl in prison she got really friend with, but nothing ever came. There was even Phoebe and Shairaya, two girls who had feelings for Seraphim, but she never truly had feelings for back in that same way. Fortunately, she managed to tell them this early, before things got messy or she had to lie to them, but even so, it still bothered her. And then there was Megumi… someone who Seraphim poured her heart into, only to have it crushed.

But now, with Karina, she didnâ€t know what to think, even if this was a wonderful experience for them both… She relaxed more into Karinaâ€s touch, finding herself leaning her head gently against Karinaâ€s shoulder, as her hand slid a bit high under Karinaâ€s thigh, gliding just under the edge of the girlâ€s skirt, getting closer to her delicates. But Seraphim felt like her hand was on autopilot, going past her questionable reasoning. Then, her face moved closer, following the same ideal as she didnâ€t even know exactly what she was doing, moving inch by inch, closer to Karina, her soft, pink lips slowly pursing together and her eye fluttering nearly shut. She could feel an urge to kiss the girl, her hot breath tickling along Karinaâ€s cheek. But, at the last second, she stopped, looking down for a moment as she pulled her hand away too, taking a slow breath. “I… Iâ€m really confused here…” Seraphim said slowly, breaking the moment completely between them. She was still close to Karina, their shoulders touching, but her hand now rested on her own lap, as her gaze trailed down, thinking heavily now. “To be honest… I want to get closer with you. But… Iâ€m thinking itâ€s too soon… and after all Iâ€ve been through, I donâ€t want to jump into this when Iâ€m still… not even over the first.” She didnâ€t want to compare Karina to Megumi, that was nothing like this. But still, she didnâ€t know what else to do. “I-Iâ€m sorry, Iâ€m not trying to make you sound like youâ€re less important. Right now.. youâ€re my world. I just… I donâ€t know if I should kiss you, or just settle for a hug.”

Deep inside there was a dissapointing feeling when Seraphim pulled away and the thoughts of Karina being a monster came back in her mind, she felt like it was just a tiny string that seperated herself from the heavenly feeling or the gruesome hell she has been living, she was to get beyond this line so badly.. But she refused to do that if Seraphim wasn't ready, forcing a grin onto her lips and brought her hand from Seraphim's head an brought it down the pat the girl's shoulder. " Take as long as you need.. I'll be.. waiting, just do what your heart tells you to. " Karina used to find such thing corn like following your heart or that love conquers all, it all meant nothing to do but now it seemed to be completely different..

The girl was still quite relaxed with Seraphim, she felt warm and light headed. It might be the wound on her head but that would be an horrible timing, she used to get many wounds when she was a child, always having anger issues and throwing heavy objects at people who pissed her off, only to break a few bones and have it healed again but that only made her to the girl she was now, strong and cold though now she was anything but cold.. Hell might had frozen over her all this time, which only gotten worse in the Era of Hell but here she was completely different, inside she was opening up again, much like a beautiful rose. It was really hard to tell whenever this was going to stop, it just all seemed to risky but when Seraphim had pulled back she already felt like she wanted to cling to her, it was a weird feeling, that she was desperate with staying close to Seraphim but at the same time she respected her and wanted her to be herself. She was going to look forward to the next few days where she and Seraphim will be spending more time together, that's when she'll find out how close they'll be getting and how much they can trust eachother with everything.. Karina looked forward to that, turning her head to the side so she could stare at Seraphim with a gentle look. " Aslong as I can enjoy your company.. "

What was she supposed to do? Karina didnâ€t seem shocked at all from Seraphimâ€s comment on wanting to kiss her. In fact, it was as if the feelings between the two were mutual, something between them blossoming rapidly so much that Seraphim had trouble even keeping control of it. She really had a desire to do anything with the precious, raven haired rocker before her, even tempted to just rip off that kimono and do all sorts of things with her. But rationality remained, and Seraphim kept herself under control, taking a long breath to keep herself calm about this. In fact, she smiled once again at Karinaâ€s words, feeling relief over the confusion.

“Thanks… Iâ€m glad you understand.” She said with a feeling of ease coming to her, even leaning back a little in the couch as she heard that. She still looked at Karina though as their red eyes met, and casually, she reached out, moving aside a few of her black strands of hair so she could see Karinaâ€s face a little better. For a moment though, she let her hand rest against the womanâ€s cheek, which she would feel that Seraphimâ€s palm, although having a gentle touch, was a bit callous. But Seraphim still smiled a little, just taking the time to enjoy this moment together. “…What are you feeling right now?” Seraphim asked as she moved closer again, still resting one hand on Karinaâ€s cheek, as her other started to wrap gently around Karinaâ€s thin waist, their shoulders pressed lightly together as she was face to face with the girl who fascinated and interested her so much.

When her warm cheek was held by Seraphim palm, her eyelids widened and she started to become red once more, it was just odd for herself to.. Be this close to someone, the feeling was strange but not unwanted. However when Seraphim moved in closer to her, feeling the girl's arm around her waist only made the goosebumps rise from her skin and her eyes fixig on Seraphim's eye and eyepatch, having been silenced while the girl leaned in close and close untill they were face to face, feeling her breasts being pressed in by Seraphim and released a gentle yet relaxed sigh against Seraphim's lips, whispering softly. " I-I feel... " Karina couldn't seem to say it, it felt too hard, like a giant wall right infront of you and there was no way over it but she had to say it, she felt like Seraphim deserved but also.. Karina wanted to herself to hear it. " In...love.. " It was almost the faintest of whispers that came out of her but it was still loud enough to be heard since Seraphim was this close to her.

Karina didn't notice it herself but with Seraphim around.. She was less.. Less her old self, someone who only craved violence and hatred towards anything else, she had never believed in love or anything that happy, only forcing others into pain or submission. But right now just being this close to Seraphim, made her more happy then anything else in th world and knowing that... She couldn't hold herself. Even though she respected Seraphim and understood her, being this close to the girl the temptation ultimately became too much for her, leaning in completely and closing the gap between their lips, giving her a light but passionate kiss.

The entire moment right now left Seraphim completely calm and relaxed, feeling like she could just cast all her worries aside, and spend it here now with the black haired guitarist she had really become drawn too. She knew there were strong feelings rapidly growing between them, and Seraphim only contained them because she was afraid it was all too soon for anything. But, wanting to know just how Karina felt right now, hoping she was as comfortable as Seraphim was, the girl received an answer that left her stunned and speechless.

Love…? Was it too soon? Should Seraphim admit she felt the same? What should she say after that? Her own mind clouded once again in confusion and uncertainty, Seraphim stared at Karina with a wide expression in her crimson eye, her hand sliding slowly away from Karinaâ€s chin, her grip loosening on the girl in general. She enjoyed all her time with Karina, but was it really possible and right if it was in that kind of way? Silent at first, Seraphim backed her face away a little as Karina got closer, but finally, like she was completely frightened, Seraphim stood still, and let out a slow, shaking breath before she felt Karinaâ€s press against her own. “Mmf!” A small gasp of surprise came from Seraphim as she felt their soft lips meet, and she stood still, not pulling away, not getting any closer, just letting Karina give that tender kiss upon Seraphimâ€s smooth lips. She began to relax into it though, her crimson eye giving a small flutter, before slowly closing as she decided to let it overtake her. It made her senses tingle and brought a wave of relief over her when she realized how right this felt, and before Karina could pull away, she would feel Seraphimâ€s hands on her again. Letting the one around her waist pull her closer again, Seraphimâ€s cheeks began to redden when she felt her perfectly rounded breasts lightly press into the chest of Karinaâ€s kimono, feeling those two mounds nestled inside making contact with her own. Letting her other wrap around the back of Karinaâ€s head, drifting through her pink and black locks of hair, she made sure to keep their faces this close, suddenly seeing how she didnâ€t dare to let this moment finish so soon between then, giving a small moan of desire and happiness as their lips remained pressed together.

Karina's lips were very soft and gentle for someone like her and this was probably this first time she ever kissed someone like this, her eyelids completely covering her eyes, enjoying the moment even thoug she could feel Seraphim pulling it away from, perhaps it was just going too fast for Seraphim and as much as Karina wanted it, she knew when to take a hint and even though Karina wanted to show Seraphim her love, now didn't seem like the best time to do it, slowly starting to pull away and get ready for an apology but sudden she could Seraphim holding her again and pressing into the kiss, it confused Karina at first but this is what she really wanted.

Karina leaned in closer against Seraphim so their chests pressed together, it did make the girl blush but she focussed more on the kiss she shared with Seraphim then anything else, purring softly when her hair was being stroked, one would fine Karina really being cute and loving at this point, one hand placing itsself on Seraphim's thigh and gently pressing down on it while the other was brought up to the girl's cheek and gently stroked her thumb in circles over it, Seraphim's small moan was music to her ears, not wanting to break the kiss unless Seraphim was going to, hell she refused to even if her lips would somehow become try, pressing her lips further into the kiss.

For something so sudden, it all felt so right. She was tense about it at first, but now Seraphim began to relax with the moment, closing her eye as well as she relaxed, feeling like her troubles were melting away with the kiss they both refused to break away. Why was she letting this happen so suddenly? After everything she had been through, shouldnâ€t she wait? She still wasnâ€t even sure about Megumi, nor did she even think this was something they should do this soon. But, those thoughts began to fade away as Seraphim felt the contact Karina was starting to give. The gentle touch of her hand upon her cheek, and the warm sensation against her thigh, Seraphim began to relax, not afraid to even let Karina take the lead, wondering just how strong her feelings were, as she felt willing to experiment and try out whatever Karina wanted. Though they just met, she trusted the girl, and would like to see just what she was planning for her in general.

“Agh!” Suddenly, Seraphim flinched and pulled back, shouting in frustrated pain s her hand quickly clutched her jaw. She completely ruined the moment, cringing in pain as she found that when they deepened the kiss, it put a little strain on her cracked jaw, and that was more than enough to bring a shocking jolt of pain to her. “..Shit! God damnit that hurts.” Rubbing it sorely, but soft so she didnâ€t make it any worse as she looked away, Seraphim kept her eyes closed tightly, trying to shake off this pain quickly since she hated hot it bothered her so much like this.

Needing a few moments, she took a small breath, still rubbing her aching jaw, even now still blushing red from the moment, not sure what to say after that. Slowly though, trying to act distracted even though the pain was fading, she looked at Karina, feeling very awkward now after that all. “I erm…” Still keeping her hand on her jaw just to seem busy with it, Seraphim sounded nervous, and even smiled even though it was forced as she looked at Karina in the eyes, before her own closed with that awkward smile, realizing she just made the whole moment feel that way. “S-Sorry about that. I um… a-almost forgot about that…”

It seemed strange but with every passing second they shared the kiss, many feelings were brought back into Karina's life, not even a few minutes ago did she thought that love was only standing in the way in her way of life, something she could never find and would be left deep within the darkest chambers of her mind yet here it is, flourishing within a beautiful flower by the ray of light that Seraphim shined over it. It was magical and Karina didn't want that strange yet welcoming feeling to end, however it did when Seraphim pulled back and immidiatly there was a new look upon Karina, a worried look. She carefully inspected Seraphim and watched her rub her jaw, releasing a sigh of relief when she knew it was the old wound she gave the girl though silently cursed at herself for doing that.

Karina leaned in once more but this time her head rose and planted a gentle kiss upon Seraphim's forehead, both hands now placed upon the sides of the girl's head and whispered out with a sweet tone. " It's okay.. Just rest up. " With that the girl pulled away from Seraphim and got back upon her feet, turning to grab the large bowl and placing all the garbage of their meal in it so she could bring it all to the kitchen and start cleaning up though that entire time there was gleam in Karina's eyes, like something wonderful had happened and for Karina herself.. It really did.

Karina… just what was Seraphim supposed to do about this all now? She couldnâ€t really grasp these feelings yet, as they were pouring out so quickly, too much for Seraphimâ€s comfort. Her heart really did go out for the girl, but wasnâ€t this all too soon? They had only met yesterday, and now she.. they already kissed! That wasnâ€t to say Seraphim didnâ€t enjoy it though, for a girl as rough as herself, she certainly had a gentle kiss and such soft skin, Seraphim actually wanted more of it. But at the same time, she didnâ€t even know what to do with herself, as her already confused and cluttered mind was becoming more lost in the moments with Karina, leaving her flustered, uncertain, but… happy.

When Karina pulled away and gave Seraphim a soft kiss on the forehead, she gave an almost childish grin, chuckling softly as she felt like she was suddenly being pampered. Around Karina, she felt like she could just relax more, even if she had all these troubling thoughts, and her body was still sore and aching, Seraphim found peace in all of this. Just as thankful as Karina was to be with Seraphim like this, the white haired girl felt the same way about her; they both seemed to find peace with eachother.

Shortly after Karina returned to the kitchen, Seraphim let out a gentle sigh as she had a moment to herself. Leaning back as she adjusted a couch pillow behind her head, Seraphim subconsciously adjusted her eyepatch, before staring at the palm of her hand, the small scar across her palm making her reflect even further on things in her life. All of her thoughts were really starting to fuse into a mess, between White Gale, Era of Hell, Megumi, Karina, her ‘sisters†and friends, the threats… all of it left her with so much to think about. But soon, the distant look in Seraphimâ€s eye faded, as she closed her crimson orb, letting out a soft sigh as she let herself drift off into a brief nap, at least for a few minutes.

Karina walked back to the living room when she was done in the kitchen, only to see a sleeping Seraphim on her couch. There was a hint of a light smile upon the girl's as she took a few steps closer to Seraphim, carefully starting to move her so she was laying completely opon the couch and allowed her to rest much more at ease. She headed upstairs to grab a blanket, inspecting it while she was thinking to herself, how wonderful it actually was to have Seraphim staying here, even if it was just for a night or two. She went back downstairs and gently wrapped the blanket around Seraphim, leaning down to once again deliver a gentle kiss upon the girl, this time on her cheek and soon whispered. " I'm sorry.. I need my guitar... "

Karina pulled back and turned to walk to the corner where she had placed her guitar, kneeling down to pick it up, her fingers gently pressing upon the cold exterior of the instrument, her eyes widened as if she felt or heard something that shocked her and quickly got up, walking back upstairs to leave Seraphim at peace in the living room. She had kept a lamp on and had it on a dimmed settings so it could not disturb Seraphim's slumber. Karina herself went into her own room and sat upon the bed, holding her guitar close against her while she looked down at her, her fingers gently stroking over the cords but not letting it make any sound, speaking out to it. " If Seraphim and I... End up together.. You have to dissapear for my own happiness. "