Turning Heel? (For Tief)

The various workers backstage were all doing their best to stay out of the way as Natasha, fresh off a loss where the entropy title had been at stake, stomped through the hallways towards the locker rooms with her feelings at that moment quite clear to anyone who saw her. One such person failed to see Natasha as he had his face buried in a book as he strolled towards her, normally Natasha would gladly move out of his way but tonight she brushed past him causing his book and the stack of papers underneath it to scatter over the floor. Her clothes were barely disheveled and only a thin layer of sweat covered her skin, proving that she hadn't been in the match for too long before it all came to an end, a fact that only added to her foul mood as the question hung in her mind of what she had failed at.

"Was it because I didn't go out there sooner? Or should I have just gone out and attacked Akashi instead of trying to do the right thing by letting her get up, I just, damn that belt was mine!" Natasha said out loud though she didn't realize she had.

Heather was quickly following behind Natasha, trying to catch up to her but keeping enough distance for her to cool off. She watched her brush past a guy, what he was holding to scatter all over the floor, Heather's eyes widening as she quickly got down to help him. "Aah s-sorry about that, she's not too happy right now, she's not usually like that." Heather let out, trying to force a smile as she helped him pick up his t hings before quickly running to catch up with Natasha again, hearing her words.

"H-hey! Natasha!" Heather yelled out, finally trying to get her attention from what she was saying, trying to catch up to her and put her hand on her shoulder.

Natasha didn't even notice Heather was following her, in fact in her haste to get out of the arena before she did something rash Natasha had forgotten all about her, something she would come to regret later on but at that moment she was too lost in her own thoughts to notice. Even Heather yelling her name didn't break Natasha out of her little trance in which she kept replaying moments from the match over and over in her head, but when Heather caught up and grabbed her shoulder Natasha spun around as if she was going to hit Heather, though thankfully she stopped herself in time.

"H..heather I'm sorry, you surprised me is all!"

As Natasha turned around, looking as if she was going to hit her, Heather would wince a little before letting out a sigh as the girl stopped herself. She looked at her a bit worried before she shook her head. "Its..ok..just when you rushed out of the ring area and walked right past me I knew something was wrong." Heather let out, shaking her head as she remembered what Natasha had just said.

"Uhh..you know..Im sorry about getting mad at you out there for letting Akashi up. I know you're second guessing yourself now..but..really..you're one of t he few people here that would do that..Even I would have just taken advantage of the situation, but not you.." Heather let out, trying to fish for words. "So uh..I..don't think you should regret what you did..Is what im trying to say."

The fact that she had been a couple inches away from hitting Heather scared Natasha, it was something she didn't think herself capable of but now that she thought about it she had been close to beating Kelly with that chair even though the match had ended. Thinking back on the match however only brought those feelings of inferiority and anger back to her, Natasha barely hearing what Heather was saying at first but forced herself to listen when she realized she was trying to help her.

"No, I'm fine..." She started to say in response but her voice trailed off as she realized she wasn't, or at least she wasn't her usual self, whether that was good or bad she didn't know yet. Heather was trying to help but everything she said just seemed to beat home the fact that Natasha had failed to capture the title and that it was because of her actions, if she had just taken advantage of the situation she had come into then maybe she would be the champion right now. So caught up in those thoughts was she that Natasha barely registered the last words Heather said.

"Heather I'm not mad at you and I know you're just trying to make me feel better, but I know you weren't thinking that during the match. You thought to yourself, why doesn't she just do what I would do and attack her, she could win the title or at least help me, thats exactly what you were thinking right Heather? If I had just done that, if I hadn't been so preoccupied with playing the good girl then Kelly wouldn't be the damn Champion!" Natasha half shouted the last word, smashing her fist down onto a table beside them.

Heather watched on as the girl went to say that she was fine. She knew that wasn't true, Natasha was clearly bothered and was fighting herself on the inside and Heather hated to see that. It was the same regret and t he same wondering that went through Heather's head during her rush for the AFW title. It was killing her at that time and she knew that Natasha was probably feeling horrible right now.

Heather jumped a bit as Natasha smashed her fist into the table, blinking a couple times before shaking her head and sighing. "If you want me to be honest, what I was thinking was that I wanted everyone else to get the hell out of there so I could beat Akashi myself." Heather let out before shaking her head again.

"I'm..being serious Natasha. You were the best person out there. Everyone else was playing dirty but you were doing it right..a-and..Honestly I know if you fought Kelly one on one you would be able to beat her. It was a mess out there and no one's at fault for the result." Heather let out before trying to step forward and wrap her arms around Natasha, trying to hug her close. "Stop..second guessing yourself..What you did out there was what you should have done a-and..because of how great you are like that..i-it's one of the many reasons I l-love you.."

Natasha had not taken her eyes off of the hand which she had smashed against the table since doing so, focusing on that one spot and nothing else as she struggled to make sense of the various emotions running through her head in that moment. How could she not doubt herself, after all it was not only her choices which had cost her the title but her abilities as well, furious with herself that she had failed to keep Kelly down with that kick of hers, not even once thinking that perhaps Kelly was just tougher than she thought as she couldn't fathom anything but her loss being entirely her failure to own.

Hearing Heather continue she kept her eyes away from the gaze of the woman, tightening her fist even further as she heard her girlfriend admit she would have rather not had Natasha there at all, or at least thats how she took it in the state she was in. "So you would have rather I stayed in the back, given up my shot to you is that it?" Natasha replied while keeping her eyes focused on the table.

"I lost my chance, what right do I have to ever face her one on one now, as if the result would be any different. I hit her with my best shot and she just shook it off, and you've beaten her before, guess I'm not even in your league Heather." She said in a voice that was barely above a whisper, gritting her teeth as she did her best to swallow the anger welling up inside her. Her eyes would then open wide as Heather wrapped her arms around her yet she kept her eyes gazing downward, not fighting her embrace but not returning it either until she heard Heather tell her that she loved Natasha. She would then cling to that word like a life raft, her arms coming up to wrap around Heather while she rested her chin upon the woman's shoulder.

"I thought that you'd be angry with me, after all my failure cost both of us that title I...I should have tried to help you Heather and I'm sorry, I was only a hindrance to you out there."

"That's..not what I meant and you know it." Heather let out, a bit regretting what she had said about her thoughts before she would hug Natasha tightly. She didn't want to see her in this state for any longer, it was something that was killing her straight to her heart. She would hug her as close and as warm as she could before Natasha finally hugged her back, feeling her rest her chin on her shoulder.

"S-stop it's ok..That's not even true and even if it is like I care about that. That's just a belt. Honestly Natasha you mean soo much more to me than anything like t hat a-and I don't want to see you all disappointed in yourself like this." Heather let out, squeezing her even tighter as she did.

Natasha turned her head to look away from Heather as she immediately regretted having said what she had about Heather not wanting her out there, that hadn't been what the woman meant but she had twisted it around on her all the same. Heather was just trying to do anything she could think of to pull Natasha out of the sea of despair she was drowning in and somewhere in her mind Natasha recognized that, but even so her anger with herself held fast even as her arms loosened from around Heather.

"But its not ok, none of what just happened is fine Heather." Natasha would say before pushing against the woman and slipping out of her embrace, turning around only to then walk over to the locker room door, pushing it ajar but not going in just yet. "I know you care for me Heather and I believe you when you say you don't care about any of that, but the simple truth is I lost because I wasn't more like you, if I was we would be celebrating right now instead."

With that said she would slip into the locker room to begin changing out of her ring attire, unbuckling the clasps of her outfit before sliding it up and over her head, pulling it off completely leaving herself in nothing but her blue bra and panties.

"Ah.." Heather felt a little pain in her chest as Natasha's arms loosened around her and she said what she did, slipping out of her embrace. Heather bit her lip a bit, hating that none of this seemed to be working. It was the worst seeing Natasha like t his, and Heather knew the girl didn't deserve to have to go through this. She wanted to cheer her up somehow, but she just couldn't think of how to do it.

"But..but Natasha look what happened out there! I-I..being me..all I did was kick Akashi out of the ring and make it even more difficult for everyone because I wasn't willing to wait and do it your way." Heather let out, shaking her head at Natasha's words. "H-honestly you have to believe me you aren't at fault for what happened out there..k-kelly is just a bitch and I know that more than anyone..You could totally beat her!" Heather continued, fully believing what she was saying to Natsha before she would slip into the locker room.

Heather watched her remove her ring attire, causing her to blush as always at her lover's impressive and beautiful figure. "A-ah...S-sorry I didn't think you'd..a-aaah i mean not like it matters s-since we're as close as we are and all b-but..d-did you need time to change sh-should I step out?" She let out, stumbling over her words a bit as she couldn't take her eyes off Natasha's body. "A-aah what am I saying!? S-sorry I didn't mean to change the subject!"