I'd like to apologize.

Hello everyone. I imagine some of you are less than thrilled to see me coming back to this forum. Honestly, I wouldn't blame any one of you. I've been a dick to some of you for one reason or another. It's a bad aspect about myself that I had failed to fully realized until, I came across some very patient people who agreed to assist me in what I say or do that gets under people's skins. I know I tended to be controlling when it came to plots behind matches. It's just, when I get an idea, I think it's "the most awesome idea ever" and I just start moving and leaving people behind. I also tended to leave some matches idle because I lost interest in the fight itself, and didn't bother with finishing it.

Before, I remember trying to ask people about what it is about me that people have so much dislike towards. It turns out it was simple. I tend to be confrontational. I tend to be straightforward with my opinions on people, and brutally honest at points. Other times, I antagonize when someone gets pissed off, and then wonder why they're so angry with me later because I just thought it was a harmless joke. These are all things that I have been working to improve on, both IRL and on the internet. I feel I've made a nice bit of progress in real life, and have amends with people that I have butted heads with before. Repeatedly. Now I'm trying to make amends for people I've pissed off or alienated on here.

I know words are only words, so, I don't expect to just be welcomed back by everyone with open arms, but, I hope most of you will at least take another chance with me, or with interacting with my characters. After making the Monster Lord character from Monster Girl Quest, I've rekindled my interest in this forum quite a bit, and would like to once again participate in forum RPs with the rest of you, as well as do IM RPs.

All in all, I'm really regretful for any and all drama that I've caused at this place, and would like to try a fresh start.

So, what do you say? Can you all give me another chance?

Never had problems with you so all i can say about the matter is: glad to have you fully back^^

Everyone deserves a second chance. I've never really had problems with you, so welcome back.

These threads never go well. Here's to trying, though.

So here's the problem that I see... You've made this thread to explain that you've discovered your problems relating to people and that you're trying to fix them, which is great, but the things that you think are the problem are not problems. You've identified being direct and honest as your problems, but I would bet that you, and everyone else, consider those to be good qualities. All this does is transfer the real blame to everyone else. There's one other person in particular that seems to have the same problem you do.

Now I'll be direct and honest. Your problem is that you're narcissistic. You don't seem to be aware of the feelings of others, much less do you assign any real importance to them. You put yourself first. It's no surprise that people react negatively to you, but the fact that you've noticed that is a step in the right direction.

For example, bearing in mind that I don't care about anyone's half-snake characters on this board, I did point out the thing with the pics of your characters just to see you make a snippy remark about it, dismissing the thing I brought up while trying to attack me in whatever little way for bringing it up. The thing that makes these things so volatile is that you respond so poorly to criticism, but in these situations, I am generally hesitant to dial things back for someone's comfort.

In short, while I admire your attempts at self examination and personal growth, you've unfortunately failed to come up with any real conviction. Keep looking. It takes an enormous amount of courage and humility to go through this sort of thing, but you're fully capable of it. It would be a shame for you to keep getting chased out of whatever social network without ever knowing why.

I also mentioned that I can tend to be a control freak, but I thank you for your reply. That's the second adjective used to describe me today that I've never heard anyone use towards me before: narcissistic.

And yeah, this.. really isn't easy. especially with a similar situation IRL. I'd rather not get into the full brunt of it, but, basically, I torched my bridge with her pretty badly, but even so, I still tried to meet her face to face to talk it out with her. Surprisingly, she gave me another chance. I'm honestly really grateful for that.

Also, I hope I'm not sounding defensive here, but, it IS a little hard to be concerned about other people's feelings on the internet, especially if you're not in contact with them too much. Unless some kind of major event happens with them, good or bad.

Again, thank you for your honesty, and yeah, I know I've acted like an ass in the past, towards you, and a few others in particular, and I really am sorry. I just want to be able to reconnect with the people on here I've alienated in some way or another.

Here's one little point to ponder. You keep saying that you want to reconnect with people you've alienated and all that, and that can be a good thing. But the question to ask yourself is do you want that because it's good for you, or because you're concerned with them and want to make amends for your wrongdoing?

Honestly.. it's more like I know that what I did was wrong, and was undeserved, and more like how I really, really don't want to be that person. I don't want to be selfish. I don't want to be arrogant. I don't want to be narcissistic. I don't want any of those things, it bothers me a lot to hear those words thrown towards me.

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