Re: Confessions

[Bluemouse]

Okay, I'll bite. In response to the conditional issue, I have a seething hatred for this. On a side note, Harrier (howdy) with respect, I don't think that has much to do with the process of writing a match with someone. Wrestling irl has surprisingly little to do with board rp. But how the thing always works is someone comes into a match determined to win, and it doesn't happen right away, so they get frustrated and start piling moves on you so you look like a jerk if you don't sell at least ONE of them.

Confessions!
-If you conditional tense double post in a match, I won't ask you for another.
-I have a thick skin, but that thick skin surrounds a mysterious crushing insecurity. I am at once fully self sufficient, and in need of constant validation and encouragement. It's a factor in threads sometimes.
-I fold up like an old wallet in matches where I worry that the other person wants something and might get upset. I'm willing to fight at the drop of a hat, but terrified by the thought of being yelled at.
-I HATE the idea of hentai matches. Worthless, stupid, vile things that cheapen everything else. >_< In the RP Wrestling grocery store, hentai matches would be TV dinners.
-A few times, I've stopped going after new threads to let my stuff just run out so I could be done, but I've been roped back in by certain people every time.
-I think if you have a wrestler, and you don't know what her middle name is, what the lasting effects were of her early relationships (ie mom/dad), and how she feels when wrestling and training and all that, then you, senator, are no Jack Kennedy.
-I write in little inside jokes to myself in my posts to amuse no one but myself.
-I usually post in short little bursts, so just about everything I write is really rushed.
-I don't take this stuff too seriously, but I do take doing a good job with it pretty seriously. I don't want to do anything unless I do it well.
-AFW has pushed back my usual bedtime. " title="Razz" />

Also, @ Kitten, don't worry, I don't think you're all that. I'll criticize the shit out of you until you cry, and then we'll make out, just a little bit. Then it's back to work. Also, all your rp sex is rotting your brain. It's easy mode. That's why you feel like you're stagnating.

[kerflubble]

-I initially started lurking for the hentai matches
-My sarcasm detector is not very good online
-I worry that doing or suggesting certain types of matches or trying certain things makes people think less of me as an rper
-I cannot take any criticism at all. Most of the time when looking for feedback I'm just angling for positive re-enforcement so I don't feel like a piece of shit for a few brief moments. If I get criticized in any way, I'll either get really angry and defensive for a while or just very sad and be reluctant to work with the person who did.
-As much as I try not to because it's an assholish thing to do: I do get frustrated when matches don't go my characters way all the time.
-My brain tries to sabotage me when I go to write something remotely angsty, making it painful to do any decent character development work
-I expect you all to hate me and think of me as an insecure child for the above confessions.

There.

[TiefBlau]

- I unfortunately instantly become slightly disinterested when posts in a match or thread are like 4 or 5 lines long, almost to the point where I don't read them. I usually kick myself for this afterwards as it ends up being an excellent thread. Just goes to show that quantity isn't everything.
- I have taken countless 'unscheduled breaks' for days just because I would rather sit around listening to music. I miss alot of good days doing this.
- I will sometimes fall asleep when doing a late IM rp. I'm sure a few people here can confirm that. I always wake up the next morning to find the person's reply and feel like an asshole.
- I totally check every new addition to the friction roster to see if the girl does a facesitting or smother move, and get quite disappointed when they dont and the character's picture base clearly has the 'assets' for it.
- If you have an IM or PM match against me, your character will more than likely, 99% of the time, win the match, regardless of what character I'm using.
- James LaBrie sings all but two of my characters' themes...yeah even the ones that aren't related at all.

Im sure there's more, but at the moment that's all I can think of.

[mnpinner]

-I am guilty of writing in the exact manner that Kitten hates...
-I use ellipses more as a matter of segueing and providing a pause. I've never been much of a writer...so instead of taking the playwright's way about providing pauses, I substitute the "..." quite often...I hate it, but I can't seem to make myself stop from doing it...
-I've been told I have a great ability to write grammatically and all by my teachers, but I highly doubt it.
-I hate grammar
-I also hate when a match goes "lock-up, sexsexsexsexsexsexsex" and I admittedly seem to be guilty of those matches, but it seems usually that that's what both parties want from the match, so it kinda makes sense to just get right to what we both want.
-I'm a hippo.
-Oh wait...meant hypocrite. ^^'
-I only put "If...., then...." in my posts because when I started hear I was coming from an RP site where I rage quitted because it went from being a casual RP site to one where if you left one detail out, they exploited your slip-up to the utmost dickishness. Here, I was glad that it wasn't really a "win-or-lose" kind of feeling, so I usually like to leave it up to my opponent as to what they want to happen.
-The above and the sexsexsexsexsex thing might be remedied if prior to the match a general goal was set aside from "one player orgasms immensely and is left wanting more in the ring".
-I have all of these "great" ideas for characters, but never seem to bring myself to executing them, and when I do, I find the result deeply disappointing.
-When I haven't responded to a post in a long time, it's usually because I am either exhausted, creatively frustrated, or I've sadly lost some interest in the match because it's kinda just turned to sex.
-I've never had sex and am not ashamed, but I do sometimes fear that I'll end up like Steve Carrell (if you don't get what I'm saying, shame on you " title="Razz" />)
-Usually I just want somebody to talk to, but I've never been very social to people.
-I hate when I try to start a PM or IM conversation and it never really gets past the "How are you?" stage. I also hate when I am the reason it doesn't get past that stage.
-I am an Electrical Engineering student. So any resentment Kitten has towards them, just remember I don't care how you make things look. Just make sure I can fit whatever circuitry I need in there and we'll be fine.
-I am long-winded and boring.
-I feel more comfortable talking about personal things on here than to my friends that I have actually met and communicate with on a daily basis.
-I should probably stop talking now...

Edit for clarification: The list of reasons I don't respond to posts is in order from most likely to least likely. The last is not true for any matches I'm involved in right now.

[LunarWolf]

Hmmmm -`?´- OKay, let's take this for a spin.


- I am probably the weakest person in the world, mentally
- I have a crippling low self-esteem
- I am kind of a hypocrite, in the regards to the next thing at least
- When it come to matches, Rp's amd other stuff, I tend to become a bit scared when a person isn't posting to me and a bit paranoid, I assume that I have pissed said person off or that I am boring said person.
- I have no ideas! I mean it, I can't come up with shit...
- I might not seem like it, but on the internet I find interaction with people in the modern world filled with things as sarcasm and other ways of communication that is in direct in their meaning and will sometimes fall to believing what the person said as the truth and not go to " Oh Sarcasm ".
- I kinda feel a need to measure my self worth in some means, it can be by contacts in something, acheivments in other things and in the case of AFW ... >_> I guess Karma.
- I came her completely new to rping and not that into wrestling....honestly I don't know why I joined.
- I have made quite a bit of friends on AFW...I THINK, at least I view them on friends, and some are the best ones I have ever had.
- I don't have any real preference, but I do have mood swings when it comes to rping, so for a day or two or three...maybe a week, I can't think of anything for a post because I am not in that mood and I hate that I have to leave someone hanging like that. ( since I hate it so much)
- I am quick to claim that something was my fault and try to fix it or I will run away from the problem...I rarely put the blame on another person, because then there is nothing I can do about it.
-For quite a long time, on several occasions AFW may...have been on of the best things in my life ( Kinda sad I know )
- I don't see any problem with follow up moves, and it's not cause I use them, it's cause I simply want to have fun and I won't ever hold it over a person if they decide to interrupt a move, or a move in the sequence of moves.
- I do however think...that almost always in ever case, there should be written " Attempt " "Try " or a synonym of those when it comes to everything. ( might have forgotten sometime)
- I have a lot of threads!
- I don't find it that much of a burden, only when people start asking me or things like that for posts, cause then I just start feeling bad, especially if i get a question like " Have you grown bored of our match ?"
- In most cases I consider myself pathetic and boring
- I have and will always find it difficult to talk to people ( Girls especially ) doesn't mean I can't, just something about me, even if I have know the person for years, I still have that problem.
- I am a quitter, I give up when things go bad, ( not matches or anything, but well relations with other people and stuff like that )
- I self criticize myself constantly and not in the good way.
- Even if it might have seemed so to some people, and It might be true....honestly I have no idea, I might be guilty of trying to win matches sometime/s...
- I have no honest problem with any of my characters loosing per say.
- I don't know if my grammar is bad or not, or spelling, I guess most of the times and hope for the best.
- I am a Liberal, and not like you American's see it ! a real true liberal, not a capitalist, my views on many things are completely liberal. " title="Razz" />

[Jizzelle]

- I have no ideas! I mean it, I can't come up with shit...

That reminds me of another one of mine.

-I claim that I have not ideas because I think all of my ideas are too crazy.

Edit:
Kelsea. After reading through these, I would change the Subheader from "Please remember to backup your stuff" to "We hate ourselves" a la 4chan.

[Old_Man_Tai]

More confessions.

I do the "if this worked, blah blah, if it failed, blah blah" thing that people seem to hate, but in my defense, I always leave an "if it failed" option, and I always leave it up to the opponent as to if the move actually works or not.

I have zero self esteem.

When the Veteran and Mod status thingies were first introduced years ago, I actually felt rather hurt that I was not nominated Veteran status while others were, it made me feel very under valued as an RPer and as a member of the board. Of course, I forgave Kels when I was given said status last year....but that still seemed like less of a "here you deserve it" thing, and more of a "here now quit bitching" thing.

I think if a person comes here and isnt a fan of pro wrestling, then they shouldnt be here.

I disagree with Bluemouse, I think hentai matches are epic and fun and have their place. However, I do also feel that wrestling is one of the most important things about this place, and I applaud Bluemouse for her commitment to being an excellent wrestling rper.

Ive met more people that I consider to be true, honest, good friends here then I ever have in the real world.

I have a deep crippling fear of Canadians.

Ive avoided making a blog until now because I never learned how to do the url pasting blue name thingy. Turns out it was really freaking easy.

I actually hate bacon, and have been on a diet of fish and boiled broccli for a year.

The welcoming sequence is harsh for a reason and wont change. If you couldnt take it, you wouldnt have stayed.

I know nothing of anime outside of what Adult Swim shows. As a reslut, I get laughed at for bringing up stuff like Full Metal Alchemist, Outlaw Star, or Cowboy Bebop.

I love DBZ, I love Team Four Stars DBZ parody, and thats not about to change.

I dont mind non anime characters being used here, though I limit that to believeable game characters, I dont want fucking Superman showing up here.

Actually, I dont read comics.

I hear about several people here getting backed up on matches, an a tiny voice in my head wonders if I would ever get any matches from anyone if I didnt request and annoy them until said match occured.

I dont think a characters backround should have as much effect on their ability or attitude as others seem to think. My early relationships with my pedophilic drug addict parents were horrid, yet that doesnt effect the decisions I make 20 years later. Why should my Tai have his wrestling style effected just because he was adopted? Adopted people cant do chokeslams?

Middle names are pointless.

Ive been jobbing alot lately because Im lazy and because I think if people beat me, they will be more willing in matching me later. Seems to work with Wrestler Ryu.

When I look over the characters people use, I often wonder and wish certain characters of theirs could face each other.

Often times when talking with someone over IM of PM, I feel that I am just annoying and bothering them and usually drop the convorsation mid topic.

Ive never seen the following movies: Godfather 1 and 2, Jaws, Scarface, Top Gun, Anyting good with Will Ferrell in it, Any of the 6 Star Wars movies, the Matrix films, or The Dark Knight.

[Cirno]

You won't get me to confess.

[Alexandra]

When I look over the characters people use, I often wonder and wish certain characters of theirs could face each other.

I'm almost tempted to ask if you wonder that of any of my character. <_<

Well, since we're all pouring out everything here...

I'm with Bluemouse. I can't stand hentai matches. I just don't like them. I have a note in my locker room saying I don't like them!

Unlike Bluemouse though, I'm a complete doormat when it comes to dealing with people, and I usually give in and give them to people, because I like making other people happy. :|

[Bluemouse]

[quote="TaiKamiya":3thc6p8s]...but that still seemed like less of a "here you deserve it" thing, and more of a "here now quit bitching" thing.

Well, this begs the question... were you bitching, and did that get you to stop?

Also, as a psychology student and an rp'er, I think you're rather under-thinking your character background thing. What's the relationship between a chokeslam and being adopted exactly? Ooh! I always wait for an opportunity to accuse someone of making a straw man argument, but I never get to. Here it is! TAI! That is a total straw man argument! Also, Tai, you're no Jack Kennedy.


SO, to summarize, we're all a bunch of socially awkward, depressed, introverts. And nerds. Sort of goes without saying. Also, I will point out, I said "we" just now so as not to come off like a jerk, but really I meant "you". I am both the outlier and a super spy, so you'd never know the former, unless I told you. Which I did. STILL! As someone who was only introduced to nerdly things (other than comic books >.>) after joining up here and who comes from a different sort of background, I will say this:

I'm glad to have you guys around. It's nice to be able to escape from the real world for a bit and burn off some creative energy that would otherwise wither and die under the crushing weight of the working world. Someday we'll all makeout with each other in AFW heaven. Except you guys are all nerds, so, ew. GTFO.

*hugs*

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